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Day 11: Do not send me flowers (a poem)

Posted on 05 December 2000
 

"Do not send me flowers", a poem

I got flowers today. It wasn't my birthday or any other special day.
We had our first argument last night, and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me.
I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said.
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today. It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day.
Last night, he threw me into a wall and started to choke me.
It seemed like a nightmare. I couldn't believe it was real.
I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over. I know he must be sorry.
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today, and it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day.
Last night, he beat me up again. And it was much worse than all the other times.
If I leave him, what will I do?
How will I take care of my kids? What about money? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave.
But I know he must be sorry.
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today. Today was a very special day.
It was the day of my funeral. Last night, he finally killed me.
He beat me to death.
If only I had gathered enough courage and strength to leave him, I would not have gotten flowers...today.

 

"Jangan Kirimi Aku Bunga",
a Bahasa version published in Kompas, Indonesia

Aku mendapat bunga hari ini, meski hari ini bukan hari istimewa dan bukan hari ulang tahunku.
Semalam untuk pertama kalinaya kami bertengkar dan ia melontarkan kata-kata menyakitkan.
Aku tahu ia menyesali perbuatannya... karena hari ini ia mengirim aku bunga.
Aku mendapat bunga hari ini.
Ini bukan ulang tahun perkawinan kami atau hari istimewa kami.
Semalam ia menghempaskan aku ke dinding dan mulai mencekikku.
Aku bangun dengan memar dan rasa sakit sekujur tubuhku.
Aku tahu ia menyesali (perbuatannya) karena ia mengirim bunga padaku hari ini.
Aku mendapat bunga hari ini, padahal hari ini bukanlah hari ibu atau hari istimewa lain.
Semalam ia memukul aku lagi, lebih keras dibanding waktu-waktu yang lalu.
Aku takut padanya tetapi aku takut meninggalkannya.
Aku tidak punya uang.
Lalu bagaimana aku bias menghidupi anak-anakku?
Namun, aku tahu ia menyesali (perbuatannya) semalam, karena hari ini ia kembali mengirimi aku bunga.
Ada bunga untukku hari ini.
Hari ini adalah hari pemakamanku.
Ia menganiayaku sampai mati tadi malam.
Kalau saja aku memiliki cukup keberanian dan kekuatan untuk meninggalkannya,
Aku tidak akan mendapat bunga lagi hari ini....

 

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